Anna Marcet Haldeman-Julius to Jane Addams, June 1917


Dearest Auntie,

You can't think how close to me you seemed when Manuel repeated your greeting to Alice on Mother's birthday. I was sitting up for the first time that day and just when your wire came was nursing the baby. I had been thinking of mother lying so calm and white and still in the little [cemetery] and how, over years ago, great grandmother must have been looking down at her just as I was at this little Alice, full of possibilities and I had the strange feeling I suppose many mothers [have] of being only a medium through which life flows -- through great grandmother to mother, through mother to me, through me to Alice -- and I could realize as never before [page 2] how mother would have yearned over her little grand-daughter. I felt suddenly as if I could scarcely bear it that she should never know! That my baby should have come after mother had gone! And just then your telegram came and I knew you were thinking of all three of us as only you could be.

And this morning came the dear gift -- doubly precious to me because of its double significance. It is in Alice's perambulator now. Delia has her out for an airing and she did look adorable as they started off. She has a really beautiful skin, Auntie, and such clear eyes that will be grey when she is older. My milk of which I have a super abundance agrees with her perfectly and she is growing like a little hardy flower [page 3] and has developed the most winsome smile, which arises entirely, of course, from the comfortable feel of her own innards. Delia says the reason she has no colic is because she is so strong. With the help of old mother nature she disposes of her gas as soon as it annoys her. Last night she was nursed at twenty minutes past eleven & we didn't hear a sound until five thirty this morning.

I am dressed even to my corset (and you can't think how good it feels to be trim again!) and am about the house once more. Delia leaves Saturday, tomorrow when the baby will be two weeks old and as both Alice and I are so strong and Manuel is anxious to settle into our usual routine I shall just have a young darky girl in to help me with the baby and take care of [page 4] her myself from now on.

Dr. Fox is to be transferred to Washington next week and Delia has been such a wonderful brick that it would be wicked to have her stay a moment longer than is [necessary]. She has been here just eight weeks you can't think how splendid she has been, Auntie, and you know her Red Cross plans have all been upset by Dickie. We will never know why Alice was so late -- but both Dr. Owensby and Delia said you could tell by the baby that she was long past due -- even if I had not been sure of my dates. It has certainly given her a splendid start, but it has been a long strain on Manuel. You can't imagine how he likes his own home with just his own in it.

On our wedding anniversary the music room where I was still in bed under a lovely yellow [page 5] silk couch cover, was full of flowers and Ruthie and Delia both took luncheon out, so Manuel and I could be alone. I had the gate legged tea table set in here and Edna (my capable maid) served a dainty formal luncheon. The baby was in her cariole all spic and span and while her father and I dined at the exact hour of our wedding breakfast she lay with her eyes wide open as good as gold and looking backward it seemed to both Manuel and me as if our happiness last year and the joy with which we looked forward to life together were a very pale pastel in comparison with the fullness and promise we feel now.

Dickie celebrated the event by going for her first automobile ride that afternoon. And as I looked out the window and saw the young lady go by in the car with her proud father and Aunt Ruthie-Bob I got my [page 6] first realization of the fact that she was at last a little entity.

The following day when she was one week old we had her pictures taken -- for you and Manuel's people who are very thrilled because she is the first grand-daughter her cousins on that side of the house being boys. From their pictures they are beautiful children. One, a little chap of four years, Wendell, asked "How big a bundle nine pounds was."

I should have liked to wait till I was up on the chaise [lounge], but that day was Ruthie's last with us before leaving for California. We had her taken too with the baby and the result was very satisfactory.

I wish you could see Alice, Auntie! Can't you and Miss Smith or you and Dorothy North come out for a little visit some time this month? Next week I shan't intend to do anything but take care of Dickie & run the house, but [page 7] the next I plan to get about out of doors and the following one to get back to the bank every afternoon.

Manuel has started his course at Pittsburg and comes home every noon full of interesting information and enthusiasm. We are planning to motor to Cedarville the first week in August and shall be there for grandmother's 89th birthday.

I had a sweet note from Miss Landsberg. If you feel like it when Manuel's letter finally reaches you, you could forward it to her to read. Will you tell me if you do? I am going to send her one of Alice's pictures.

I must tell you that we and she had some quite lovely letters from mother's, Manuels & my friends, busy men who have stopped to greet our little girl and one of Manuels friends has even written a poem to her. [page(s) may be missing]